Decisions and Directions: Things That Make You Go Hmmmm!

This morning I had the opportunity to talk to a marketing company about some awesome tools that are available to big companies, little companies, and start up companies.  Kevin forwarded me an email regarding a free demo.  In a half hour, I learned how another company can use it's resources to connect me to people, other companies, and journalists all around the country and increase my sales.  Nice!  This company is able to do this by using the tools I am already using (plus new tools) but using them more effectively.  You know the saying, "there is an app for that" is kind of true.  I am so not a techie and was very much blown away by the presentation.

I called Kevin up immediately after the meeting and told him I was impressed.  He says, "So how much does it cost?"  Yep, there is the clincher.  $3,000 for the platform I am interested in.  $3,000.  $3,000.  $3,000.  Three times because it is $3,000.  You get it.  It costs a lot of money and 715 Pillows does not have that much money in it's paypal account.  Have you ever seen Ferris Bueller's Day Off?  Well, do you remember the scene when Cameron flips out because of all the miles on the his dad's beloved car?  Here is a reminder: 

In a way I feel a little like Cameron.  I am not flipping out really.  I am not flipping out at all.  But, I am conflicted and sometimes a good AHHHHHHH is a pleasant release.  I like this pillow gig.  It is fun.  I have sold a few pillows to family and friends but most of my pillows have been sold to people I have never met.  My pillows are decorating homes from from sea to shining sea.  Not kidding, the good folks of California are digging 715 Pillows.  So, do I keep doing what I am doing which equates to steady sales and a bit of revenue?  Or, do I take a risk, a gamble, a plunge?  Do I really think that I have it in me to make it as a "real" company?  It is not like I invented Spanx.  I just make throw pillows.  What makes my pillows stand out?  I don't know.  But, if I am going to take this to the next step, I suppose I would have to answer some big questions.

$3,000 is a lot of money.  That it $250 a month.  I don't pay $250 a month on my car payment.  What do I want to do?  I don't know.  Up until I took this call I was thinking I should go back to school to be an ultrasound tech or pursue some other non-invasive medical job in two years when Violet is in school all day.  Things that make you go hmmmm or things that make you go ahhhhhhhhh?  I guess it is a little bit of both since this is a matter of a pipe dream and reality.